The school holidays were finally over. I carried my heavy school bag filled with books and my heavy brain with Jin. I went to class, put my bag down and sat on my chair. My partner, Gav, came after i sat on my chair. I took out my diary and read my previous entry about Jin. Again and again. Until i saw Jessica and Jin walking into the classroom together, laughing happily. I tried not to cry when i put my diary back to my heavy bag. Next, Jessica walked towards me and asked. " Jan! Jan! I have so much to tell you! But let me ask you a question, what happened to you on my birthday last week? You sounded weird after you heard... " " STOP! Please don't ask me. " I shouted.... After a few seconds I said " Sorry i was just very tired.... Please don't talk about him.. I really need some silence..." Jessica said " OK....." After the school bell rang for recess, Jessica walk towards me and said " Jan.... Whats wrong with you? You don't sound like you! Tell me the reason if not i'll not care about you!" I said " Sorry I can't talk to you personally, lets talk on the phone after school " I tried not to look at her when i said that if not i think i will cry. I took out my diary and went to a quiet place and wrote my diary.. I wrote : Today... Was like i'm going to flood the school by crying so much. I sounded like a "crybaby".. I was thinking about Jin for almost the whole period of Mr Jush's class. Haiss... I sighed. I did not look at Jin today.. When i look at him i feel like i wanted to cry. I wished that i can turn the time anti- clockwise.. So i won't meet him .. Oh God... I wished... Oh nevermind what i wished..

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